HELLO . . . readers that do not exist
I am back!!
A quick update on what's been happening lately.
I am... almost done with school this semester (just have to get through the next 2 crazy weeks of exams), I am getting fat because of all the eating out (NOOOO) and I am super excited about this end of exam party I am going to.
This semester's not been to nice to me. I haven't been doing as well as I should be on my midterms and assignments and I don't even know why exactly. Is it because the things that I'm learning right now has gotten a lot harder? Or is it because I don't put in as much effort as I used to? I'd like to think of the reason being the first one because I DO put in lots of effort in studying. During or after certain exams, I'd thought I did well, only to find out the opposite when I get see my results.
I have to say I am quite disappointed at myself numerous times when this happens, I'd sulk, I'd cry, I'd be frustrated... and try to move on to the next one thinking that I'd try harder and do better on the next one (yep thats the only thing we can do fellow university mates).
You know what gets me through this though?
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God's Word aka The Holy Bible.
Time and again God has shown me how powerful He is and how He has complete control over everything and sometimes it's just our controlling human nature that prevents Him from fulfilling His plan for us. At church on Sunday, the minister asked, "What discourages you the most?". The answer that immediately popped into my head was of course.. bad grades. It made me realize how high my studies are on my priority list. God is number 1 and studies is number 2, but sometimes I feel like these two places are switched. Especially when I am focusing/stressing while studying for an exam, I tend to forget to have quality quiet time even though they are supposed to be the ones that fuel me spiritually every day. Times like these are when God shows that He is completely faithful even though I am the opposite. I am selfish and God is selfless. He would remind me through His Word not to be ANXIOUS and that he is in CONTROL. It is so comforting it is to know that someone's got your back no matter what =)
These lyrics from a song from church has been on my heart for the longest time...
It's what encourages me and gets me through each day :)
Anchor for the soul, sheltered from the storm, the thunder and the lightning can be very frightening, but God is in control <3
That's it for today folks,
Have an amazing day!
ciao
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Sunday, September 16, 2012
TIFF 2012
Ok so i have to admit that my last blog post was pretty emo. To lighten up, here are some ehem*blurry*ehem*pictures from the Toronto Film Festival 2012.
The story was my friend and I went to The Ryerson theatre to catch a glimpse of um Darren Criss (the dude who plays blaine in Glee) at the premiere of his new movie (not sure what the title is). Since we ended class late that day, we couldn't see him cuz he exit the theatre through a different exit. We were thinking about leaving but there were quite a number of people waiting there for the next movie and the crowd just kept getting bigger and bigger. We figured that someone pretty important must be coming AND YEP the next movie that was showing was 'Spring Breakers' starring Selena Gomez, Vanessa Hudgens and etc. LOL I was curious about how they'd look in real life so we stayed.
After a while, they finally arrived and yup, they were gorgeous!
We stayed there for a bit to see everyone arrive and just enjoy the moment meeting a star :)
The story was my friend and I went to The Ryerson theatre to catch a glimpse of um Darren Criss (the dude who plays blaine in Glee) at the premiere of his new movie (not sure what the title is). Since we ended class late that day, we couldn't see him cuz he exit the theatre through a different exit. We were thinking about leaving but there were quite a number of people waiting there for the next movie and the crowd just kept getting bigger and bigger. We figured that someone pretty important must be coming AND YEP the next movie that was showing was 'Spring Breakers' starring Selena Gomez, Vanessa Hudgens and etc. LOL I was curious about how they'd look in real life so we stayed.
After a while, they finally arrived and yup, they were gorgeous!
We stayed there for a bit to see everyone arrive and just enjoy the moment meeting a star :)
people are so complicated
Sigh i'm sitting down on the toilet bowl right now blogging away through this 'new' blogger app i just dowloaded. Well... it's not exactly new but i just knew about it so yeah. Maybe I'll be able to blog more.
Why did I decide to blog again? Maybe because I'm fasting from twitter, facebook and tumblr.. Maybe cause these sites have now become too public and there is so little privacy these days... Maybe cause I don't want a certain follower on twitter read my tweet.. yeap all of them are my reasons why. Sometimes I just need to rant and ... blogger is the perfect place to do it in :)
So yeahh.. here goes...
I wonder why some people act differently towards different groups of people.. To be specific, to family and friends. They treat family and friends differently. Speaking from personal experience, I feel that people tend to be nicer (in general) to their friends and maybe show a not so true self to them.. Whereas with family, people tend to show more of their true colours (whether it is being disrespectful or just.. annoying). Maybe cause family usually knows what his/her true personality is and is able to accept it but friends, you never know what can happen.. They might like you more, they might like you less. But what I wonder is if people actually realize that they're doing this.. do they try to be someone they're not? do they knowingly stop themselves from doing what they usually do? Do they know that there are people who can see this? And if you are one of those people, you'll just be so pissed cause you know what they're really like and you have to watch them act like a different person. At these times, all I can do is just keep quiet and play along cuz if I say anything, I'll be the one who's gonna be judged and there will be a whole new level of trouble (which I would very much like to avoid).
I wonder if I'm like that too sometimes.. Maybe someone who realizes that will feel annoyed.. and talk to me about it or he/she may just choose to ignore and bear the sight. I think i'm the latter so i'm raging right now.. sometimes it's just too much.
Kay now it'll probably be a good idea to end this post before I become even crazier UGH. I'm feeling better now though after getting some of thoughts out. Good night
ciao
Why did I decide to blog again? Maybe because I'm fasting from twitter, facebook and tumblr.. Maybe cause these sites have now become too public and there is so little privacy these days... Maybe cause I don't want a certain follower on twitter read my tweet.. yeap all of them are my reasons why. Sometimes I just need to rant and ... blogger is the perfect place to do it in :)
So yeahh.. here goes...
I wonder why some people act differently towards different groups of people.. To be specific, to family and friends. They treat family and friends differently. Speaking from personal experience, I feel that people tend to be nicer (in general) to their friends and maybe show a not so true self to them.. Whereas with family, people tend to show more of their true colours (whether it is being disrespectful or just.. annoying). Maybe cause family usually knows what his/her true personality is and is able to accept it but friends, you never know what can happen.. They might like you more, they might like you less. But what I wonder is if people actually realize that they're doing this.. do they try to be someone they're not? do they knowingly stop themselves from doing what they usually do? Do they know that there are people who can see this? And if you are one of those people, you'll just be so pissed cause you know what they're really like and you have to watch them act like a different person. At these times, all I can do is just keep quiet and play along cuz if I say anything, I'll be the one who's gonna be judged and there will be a whole new level of trouble (which I would very much like to avoid).
I wonder if I'm like that too sometimes.. Maybe someone who realizes that will feel annoyed.. and talk to me about it or he/she may just choose to ignore and bear the sight. I think i'm the latter so i'm raging right now.. sometimes it's just too much.
Kay now it'll probably be a good idea to end this post before I become even crazier UGH. I'm feeling better now though after getting some of thoughts out. Good night
ciao
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
hi again... after a while
Hello blog world,
I AM BACK. Today marks.... almost 2 years since I last posted something on this blog. Since my last post, lots of stuff had happened (not really...).
Here are some of em :
1. I am now going into THIRD year of university (say whaaaa....). Say hello to more difficult courses, demanding labs, crazy assignments and other similar tingz. To be honest, I'm pretty worried about applying for a job for next school year. So U of Toronto Engineering needs every student to complete at least 600 hours of work and to give students like me(who have never worked during the summer) a chance to do so, they have this program called PEY. PEY is a shortform of Professional Experience Year where you take a break off school and work for 12-16months. LOTS of students are interested in this program since it allows them to gain experience from having engineering-related jobs. This means that people will be SUPER COMPETITIVE in looking for good and well-paying jobs ANDD people like me with little to no experience and mediocre grades would have a hard time securing one.
2. I have gone to KOREAAAAA (the country i had wanted to visit so bad since.... what 3-4 years ago/i started getting into kpop). OMG it was one of the best trips i've made in quite some time. I had sooo much fun there immersing myself in the korean culture (food, people, language) that I've seen much on korean variety shows and dramas. Experiencing them in person is definitely a valuable and interesting experience. I loved everything in Korea EXCEPT for the weather at the time I was there. I spent almost 2 weeks in Korea and it was BLISTERING HOT every day. I think I turned 10 shades darker from walking under the sun there :s oh oh oh one more thing I forgot to mention, I went to a JYP Nation Concert. It was A-MAZE-ING! (although I got seats that were pretty far from the stage PLUS my bias from 2AM and 2PM were not present at the concert). I love JYP artists and I know most of them so it was really cool to have the chance to see them live in their own country instead of watching them in Indonesia or Canada :p I think I gained so much weight from all the yummy omnomnomnoms there too!
3. I....... am too sleepy and tired to continue lol sooooo i'll probably just go to bed and continue some other day :p
ciao
I AM BACK. Today marks.... almost 2 years since I last posted something on this blog. Since my last post, lots of stuff had happened (not really...).
Here are some of em :
1. I am now going into THIRD year of university (say whaaaa....). Say hello to more difficult courses, demanding labs, crazy assignments and other similar tingz. To be honest, I'm pretty worried about applying for a job for next school year. So U of Toronto Engineering needs every student to complete at least 600 hours of work and to give students like me(who have never worked during the summer) a chance to do so, they have this program called PEY. PEY is a shortform of Professional Experience Year where you take a break off school and work for 12-16months. LOTS of students are interested in this program since it allows them to gain experience from having engineering-related jobs. This means that people will be SUPER COMPETITIVE in looking for good and well-paying jobs ANDD people like me with little to no experience and mediocre grades would have a hard time securing one.
2. I have gone to KOREAAAAA (the country i had wanted to visit so bad since.... what 3-4 years ago/i started getting into kpop). OMG it was one of the best trips i've made in quite some time. I had sooo much fun there immersing myself in the korean culture (food, people, language) that I've seen much on korean variety shows and dramas. Experiencing them in person is definitely a valuable and interesting experience. I loved everything in Korea EXCEPT for the weather at the time I was there. I spent almost 2 weeks in Korea and it was BLISTERING HOT every day. I think I turned 10 shades darker from walking under the sun there :s oh oh oh one more thing I forgot to mention, I went to a JYP Nation Concert. It was A-MAZE-ING! (although I got seats that were pretty far from the stage PLUS my bias from 2AM and 2PM were not present at the concert). I love JYP artists and I know most of them so it was really cool to have the chance to see them live in their own country instead of watching them in Indonesia or Canada :p I think I gained so much weight from all the yummy omnomnomnoms there too!
3. I....... am too sleepy and tired to continue lol sooooo i'll probably just go to bed and continue some other day :p
ciao
Thursday, March 3, 2011
failed blogger
YES i know i know i'm such a failed blogger >.<
Didn't post for more than a month now *sigh* there just hasn't been a good time..
though i suppose that's what reading week was for ( RELAXING )
But nope, my reading week was super busy ! I signed up for this volunteer thing called 'Alternative Reading Week' and it ran from Tuesday to Thursday 9-6. I think I slept less during the whole reading week than on normal school days =="
Oh but I guess I could say it was pretty fun too, I got to hang out with my awesome friends and drink bubble tea (woohoo so random right?) :p
Moving on moving on, now that school's back, everything has been more hectic than ever.
Next week is gonna be one hell of a week. I'm gonna have an exam on tuesday, a project due on wednesday, another midterm on thursday AND (possibly) a presentation on friday. I don't wanna stress about it too much and go one day at a time :) I guess that's the only way to stay sane throughout next week.
I feel pretty happy about what I got done today, well I wrote up the conclusion section of my project and did quite a lot of studying for my calculus exam. I'm telling ya, university math is TOUGH. If you think you can just make your way through without studying, you're definitely wrong 0.o I don't understand what's going on in my calc class now, need to catch up badly!
HMM the library is closing in half an hour, better be out soon. (YEP, I'm in the library studying and HUNGRY). It's too late for dinner now boohoo :(
Before I leave, I'd just write in some of things I have scheduled for the next few weeks.
This saturday: Patrolling for Designapolooza (kiddiesss coming to U of T for a design competition)
Next saturday: Volunteering for a chemical engineering applicant event (hmmm...)
Next next week: My aunt&uncle, cousins are coming! funfunfunfun
.... coming soon :D
kay then,
ciao
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Loving God and living for Him :)
Hi, it's me again. Well, it's been a while since my last blog post but this time I'd like to post about something more personal.
Ever since I came Toronto, loads of things have been going through my mind. Who are my good friends? Why can't I do as well as I had first expected in school? What IS my purpose in life? Why do I feel so empty sometimes ?
I've been a christian all my life, my parents were christians so.. yeah.
Thing is, after talking to some sisters last night at devotion, I realized that that is actually a disadvantage cause for me, I'm (kind of) studying the bible now and I know most of the stories, some of the main lessons and principles. I guess KNOWING is not the same as APPLYING it into your life. I know these stuff, but I've never applied them in my life. Back home, I'm one of those people who go to church, listen to the message, go home. I have to admit, it feels good not being convicted to do anything about the message cause God never forces His children. I feel guilty for taking the status of being a Christian for granted.
Up till recently, I've always put my studies first, getting good grades, earning praises and etc etc. I know now that I should learn to put God first in everything cause He is the reason that I live (believe it or not) :D
Putting God first, it's easier said than done, my friend. The world has thousands of ways of stopping/hindering you from doing that. That is why I am thankful for the people who are helping me,constantly encouraging me and reminding me that God is number 1 in our lives.
Love God and live only (or ultimately) for Him
ciao
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
quebec and new year :)
yep it's 2011 ! a new year and HOPEFULLY something exciting happens in my oh-so-boring life. HAPPY NEW YEAR !!
So for new years, i went to quebec city with a couple of friends :)
It was my 1st time there (obviously) and I was in AWE. Old quebec was gorgeous! Being there gave me the feeling of being somewhere in Europe <3 so so so so so pretty.
Here are some pics..
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| The whole gang :) |
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| old quebec <3 |
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| CHOCOLAT :9 |
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| AWESOME ! |
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| A-MA-ZING view photos credit : OLIN :) |
On our way back to toronto, we stopped by Montreal and had PHO. It tasted SO good (maybe because we were hungry and had been craving for pho since the day before?). Reached home at about 2-2.30 in the morning and went straight to bed since we didn't sleep in the car on the way home. We had some quality talk about guys instead LOL.
I think that's quite enough about quebec, tomorrow is that start of my 2nd semester. I am kind of excited, but scared at the same time. Weird i know. I just don't want to disappoint people when I don't do well. But, I SHOULD stay positive right? :) Kay then, will post something with pictures up as soon as i get my camera <3
CIAO
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